15.09.09
damnit
i'm sorry but these days i just feel like telling everyone to fuck off when they tell me what a waste it is that i had to give up exchange cos of one stupid woman. i know, okay, i know. you don't have to remind me what a bloody failure i am. and it's not even like they're judging me or anything. it just really is that - a waste. the problem is, i've passed the judgement on myself.
am i glad to be home where it's safe and there aren't that many psychos running around? yes.
do i wish with all my heart that i could find in me the strength to carry on living in budapest, learning to deal with my fears? yes.
but well, i live with my decisions.